Most dear, very beloved friend, respected companion
Peace be upon you and the mercy of Allah.
Before this I have already written the reply to your letter, I hope it has been received. Today I feel like speaking with you about some matters.
This spiritual order is a very strange and difficult path. When a man travels a little upon it, doubts and suspicions and thoughts of despair begin to overcome him. Satan puts all his effort into making the servant displeased. For displeasure, the automatic weapon Satan uses is the shell of ego. That is, a man begins to shrink into his ego. What he thinks, he conjectures about his self, his ego, and his individuality, personality. If a little work is done for Allah, he considers it a great achievement. And because of this weakness he establishes rights over Allah. This slips from the tongue, that what treatment has Allah done with us.
Just a week ago, a millionaire said, my friend has become rebellious against Allah. Because Allah did not accept his prayer. He had prayed that his father remain alive, he spent lakhs of rupees on treatment but the father died. Now he remains all the time lost and intoxicated in wine and meat.
I replied, first of all, this prayer itself was wrong. If you will not die, then how will your son sit upon your chair. Dying and living, both matters are so certain that from them there is no escape. Tell me this, your friend, the house in which he lives, how much price of the land of that house has he given to Allah. The wealth with which he sits, who gave it. If he had been born with a weak mind, or had neither hands nor feet, if he had been the son of a beggar and destitute, then from where would he drink wine.
To be continued……
By Beloved Khawaja Shamsuddin Azeemi RA from his Booklet: Beloved in My Arms